wat's goin on??erm...nth much...my life's gettin so borin...hurhur...not much activities goin on durin wkends nowadays...only jus last sat..went ponggol marina fer drinkin and ktv session with jan,von, alex and frens...and reach hm ard 3plus am...

ahem...i've got so much to say...but i really have no idea where to start from...or rather should i say it out??contradictin..becos im afraid tat wat im gonna say will hurt e one i love...*sigh* =.=

another thing...which happened in my workplace...
hai...i've had enuff of u already...i think tat's wat u are gonna say to me too...
i've respected u before and i've not respected u before...this i noe...but do u noe u don respect me at times too??jus like emily...u peeps talk without usin ur brains sometimes..tat's when i started to disrespect...don u peeps ever realise things u say or ask tend to hurt others??there are somethings else tat made me had enuff of u too..nut im not gonna mention it out...wat's e point??e more i say e more things get worst...
i respected u my dear...now??i dont noe anymore...
things will nv be e same again..
but still i see u as my mentor...
sorry..
thank you...

quotes~

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There's nothing wrong with you. Love just didnt choose to rest in the other person's heart... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else. But it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you...
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wat's wrong??

wat's wrong?wat' wrong?wat's wrong???i donno....donno donno donno~~~im so sick and tired... T.T everythin jus don seem to be rite......argh!!

는의여왕

i jus finished watchin this korean drama (Snow Queen) 는의여왕...got so emo after watchin it...Owell..im like tat..get influenced easily..

as usual e gurl died of illness..and e guy lived on his live reminiscing.. T.T like hell..my tears keep rollin down...eyes became so swollen when i go to work e nxt day... =.=

i donno...this thing hitting back at me again...m i bein punished??retribution??i seriously nv had a proper relationship with anyone who step in my life after u left...e prob either lies with me still thinkin of u or prob lies with e jerks i've met out there...im not blamin u...blamin myself...how could anyone let a guy like u go??tat's me...and now..i couldnt seem to find u anywhere...i don see u online anymore...u don login to friendster anymore...i emailed u..but there wasnt any reply...im worried..keepin thinkin and wonderin if anythin has happened to u....i don ask fer much..all i wan is to noe tat u are fine..

为什么总是心动 为什么总是低头 垂死挣扎的我 一天一天 不知道尽头在哪里

为什么总是徘徊 为什么总想对你说一句话 爱情也好 缘分也好 甚至命运 在离别面前黯然失色

只把我当成妹妹 生怕与我擦肩而过 不要拒绝这颗焦虑的心 第一眼就被你瓦解 我这无力的心 像傻瓜一样 让人哭泣

为什么越来越模糊 为什么心越来越痛 随着沉重的叹气流下的眼泪 在离别面前也毫无意义

生怕我错过你 生怕擦肩而过 不要拒绝这颗焦虑的心 第一眼就被你瓦解 我这稚嫩的心 实在可怜 令人回顾 若这雪停了 我心是否会平静 是否会像纷飞的雪一样消失 对你的记忆重新回来 来生是否也能记得

第一眼就被你瓦解 我这悲伤的心 实在可怜 让人哭泣 时间流逝 我心是否会平静 是否会埋没在堆积的雪当中 在心中熊熊燃烧 对你的记忆 直到死为止 深深刻在心里

왜 자꾸 흔들리는지 왜 고개만 자꾸 숙여지는지 몸서리치는 내 하루 하루는 끝이 어딘지 몰라

왜 서성이게 되는지 왜 어떤 말이 쌓여 하고픈지 사랑도 인연도 운명마저도 이별이란 말로 의미없는 걸

널 스쳐온 바람 행여 날 스쳐갈까 늘 조아린 맘 밀어내지만 첫눈에 무너지는 모자란 내 가슴이 꼭 바보같아서 눈물짓게 해

왜 점점 흐려지는지 왜 가슴이 점점 아려오는지 깊이 베인 한숨 시린 눈물도 이별 앞에 서면 부질없는걸

날 스쳐간 바람 그댈 스쳐지날까 늘 조아린 맘 밀어내지만 첫눈에 무너지는 여린 나의 가슴이 안스러 다시 돌아보게 돼

이 눈이 끝이면 이 맘도 편해질까 흩어지는 눈처럼 사라질까 계절 돌아오듯 찾아든 너의 기억을 다음 세상까지도 이어갈 수 있을까

첫눈에 무너지는 서글픈 내 가슴이 안스러 다시 눈물짓게 해

시간이 지나가면 이 맘도 변할까 쌓여가는 눈속에 묻혀질까 가슴 깊이 타올라버린 너의 기억을 숨이 멎을때까지 그대로 남아

this is e theme song of snow queen 첫눈애 初雪爱(title)...in chinese and korean version...it kinda reflect my feelins abit...=) reminiscing...

no guys can be compared to u...u noe tat?hmm..friends ask me y am i still stuck here??im like goin round n round in circles...no matter wat i've encountered..i still come back to e same spot in e end...y?i have no idea y too...=)

p.s. 오빠..나는 너를 기다리고 있다..

pics are here!!

woohoo..i've got some of my bintan trip pics already...im here to share...really enjoyed this trip..unforgettable..miss e beach e sun e sea already~~~ awww....im gonna go back again...haha..^^

tata~ ^^

back from bintan~~

im back from bintan~~~i enjoyed e whole trip so much...and im missin e beach already.....
we reach bintan before noon on e first day...a mini bus drove us up to our villa...it's quite big with 3 rooms a kitchen a dinin room and a living room...we had our own buggy which can sit up to 4 person only when we have 8 of us (korkor, jiejie, alex, gina, jan, von, pat and me)...so we rented another one more buggy fer this 3 days...e buggy is easy to drive..haha..we drive ourselves ard with e 2 buggys..after settlin down...we head down to e beach!!!!awww...e beach was so nice...and e sea...clear and SALTY!!hahaha..super salty..anyway...u won get to see tat clear sea in spore...so we were very happy swimmin in it..hurhur..u can even see fishes swimmin ard u near e shore...we love e beach and we actually went to e beach fer e 3 days stay...haha..we tanned...we swim..played volley ball and frisbee..and we went snorkellin!!on e 2nd day..i didnt expect myself to go fer snorkellin..i didnt dare at first...i was afraid of e fishes swimmin ard me..but!i love it!!feels great swimmin with e fishes...diff kinds of fishes and corals...haha...if u haven tried snorkellin before u should man..^^
oh ya..we bbq on e first day...we brought our own food...lotsa food..but we manage finish up on e second day mornin...then we went out to eat...we had dinner by e beach on second day...then we saw one of e guy who brought us out to snorkel after our dinner...he bring us down to e beach again to catch crab...jus catch and take picture..haha..lotsa screams and laughter when we were there...after tat...e guy brought us to e resort's club call Silk..no one's in e club!!!goodness..it was e first time i see a club so empty..haha..only us...e 8 of us...plus e guy who brought us there...hurhur...so funny..and it was e first time we wear shorts and slipper to a club...haha..cool eh..anyway..we played till late then went back to our villa...tat nite was e last nite..so we had to finish our hoeggarden which we bought from spore's dfs...we left quite many bottles so we decided to play game and finish our beer..haha...we were all so bloated after tat...last day we to e beach again...for e last time before we leave...after tat..we went back to pack up...and had buffet lunch at e restaurant...till 3pm our coach's here to fetch us to e ferry terminal...and off we go....reach spore 1 hr later...and we went hm...was tired..but still gotta wash up and wash my clothes too...slack awhile after tat..then went to bed...
today...back to work... =.=
i will go back to bintan again...^^
pics are on e way...gotta wait fer pat and gina to burn into cds fer us...so wait up everyone..^^

away~

finally~im finally gettin out of this place fer awhile..will be away this weekend with my gurls to bintan...let us all enjoy e sun..e shore..e sand.....relax ourselves...yea bikini babes??haha..i cant wait..hurhur...^^


p.s. i don feel good at all..abt wat happened.....

post fer u boy~

first thing first...i didnt wanted to jump start to smth else..i don wan and i don wish to..gosh..did i ask for anythin in return from u from e beginnin until now??from e beginnnin i mean my dear..when we were still back in sch..u noe i had feelins fer u...well..i cant say i've done anythin for you...but all i wanted is jus to be there fer u when u needed someone to be ard..and i don ask anythin back in return..rememberin e time ur ex jus broke up with u and u cried e whole night..this way will do..jus by sittin nxt to u..accompany u..tat's all..good enuff fer me...yes!im tat naive..can? *I didn't want to cheat or make Implusive Decisions....And knowing the Things u been thru....I knew I had to be Extra careful....* hey...i don need u to do anythin abt it..don have to..i don wanna listen to all this from u...redundant...wat i've been thru are all over..aite? *bcuz I'm not even sure myself if I can be there for u since u knew I am all over Bboying....* when and where did we started to noe each other a lil more??i don think u even rem...first yr in ite..first sw class we attended...after class i asked u to do some moves...and u did...i knew from e beginnin tat u were all over bboyin my dear...and i actually admire u fer tat do u noe tat??hell..and im into it myself..only thing diff is i cant do it like u!understandin??do u really noe wat's understandin all abt??wat for be tgt if one cant even understand e other??support..u noe??support e person u love..love wat he does..love wat he's into..love wat he loves...and 不求回报....well...tat's wat i think...for me...就算付出的再多也没关系...im like tat all along....tat's y im always bein scolded a fool...
cmon boy...i didnt blame u fer anythin...u read my previous post didnt u??did i mention anythin abt blamin u or watsoever???i didnt even wanna talk to u abt e hug...all i did was blogged abt it~~yes!i told her wat happened..all i told her was tat u were drunk and u hugged me...and i told her it's ok cos i noe tat u werent fully conscious...tat's all!then?shootin straight away to my friend is wat i get from u??do i think we can work more on it to see where it leads to??wat abt u??do u think we can work on it??cmon boy..u noe we cant..hurhur..but anyway wat wrong does my friend have??wat she did or said is jus becos she's concern abt me and im her fren...seriously it's ok..*sigh* anyway..it's jus all abt me..i've already said...no one to be blamed..i cant forget abt it myself..e hug i still remember...tat's all..i apologise if u feel offended...
i don hate u...and i guess i won...jus tat..i don think it's gonna be e same anymore..go ahead and be appalled...anyway can see u are quite popular aint u..with gurls too..so it wont hurt u abit by losin a fren..maybe or maybe not...=) Owell..jus take care boy...all e best to ur studies..wish u a bright future..enjoy wat u do..^^

oh gosh~

u think i care??seriously i don care anymore too...i don give a fuckin damn abit it anymore~~guys are all assholes~ =)

random pics~

i've got some pics from amanda and shirley already..pics taken on my granddad's birthday and pics taken on shirley's birthday..

with amanda and my sis..^^

tat's my granddad with my little cousin anson..

and this are pics taken from shirley's cam..her bday @ dragonfly...^^

and guess wat??i was goin thru dawn's past blog photos...and i found this pic..

aaaaaaaa!!!!!waa!!so old school~~~ =.= haha...ite days...with my classmates..miss those days man..

aite..tat's all fer today..hurhur..tata~^^

傻瓜..바보..fool~

其实他做的坏事我们都懂 没有什么不同 眼光闪烁 暧昧流动 闭上眼当作听说 其实别人的招数我们都懂 没有什么不同 故作软弱 撒娇害羞 只是有一点别扭 傻瓜也许单纯地懂 爱得没那么做作 爱上了我不保留 傻瓜 我们都一样 被爱情伤了又伤 相信这个他不一样 却又再一次受伤 傻瓜 我们都一样 受了伤却不投降 相信付出会有代价 代价只是一句傻瓜..
yes..im jus like wat's sang in e lyrics...a fool..always..all e time..my love life...Owell..at least not with sw..was hurt over and over but still i continue to believe....就像现在。。只是单纯的喜欢。。想付出不要求回报。。可惜我连付出的一点机会都没有。。告诉自己。。没关系。。一切都会过去。。很快就会忘记。。^^ 要乐观吧。。但还是个傻瓜。。hurhur..e song my blog's playin currently..touches my heart...

last fri..went to shirley's bday celebration at orchard party world...before headin to party world i acc von to atm outside heerens to withdraw money..and i saw tat idiot...u still look as idiotic as ever...hack care...went over to party world to join e rest later on...had fun...drank and played games..till 1am..while decidin where to go we went to cineleisure to withdraw money..and meiling's bf wanted to eat..so we sat at bk fer awhile and finally decided to head to dragonfly...so we went out to take a puff first before we go..i saw u..with ur crewmates i guess..didnt went up to say hi..don see a need...while bloggin..u msn me...should i thank u fer not makin things complicated??hurhur...forget it...yea!forget it!see wat i mean??fool~
head to dragonfly...aww..it was borin!!hmm...but von and i managed to wait till 4 for rnb...and it only lasted fer half an hour...grrr...HOME after tat!
sat was a lazy day...i slept till 5pm...watched dvd..slack and slp again~
sun was quite a lazy day too...watched abit of dvd...slept again till 2pm..then got ready to go to my granddad's place at toa payoh to celebrate his bday..wow..all my cousins changed so much...got ah lian ones..chubby ones..haha...haven seen em fer so long..oh and amanda..still as sweet as ever eh... ;P e celebration ended at ard 8plus..then went hm...watched dvd again...then ZZzzzzz~~~
today...got werk to do..but i still manage to blog abit..aite..i gotta go..tata~

p.s. wat's complicated?!?!