yea...lotsa mahjong and karaoke sessions nowadays..donno wat's got into everybody eh..haha..thurs ktv session with jan pat and jiejie..with van joinin us later on but she don sing de..hurhur..
was suppose to meet e gurls at compass pt on fri nite...but plans changed..was kinda pissed..well but aite later on...was playin mj initially with kor jie and van..but somehow tat pattie took over my place...=.= ya.. she say she's gonna quit mj fer a mth..but!she took over my place..hurhur..im aite with it nar...so i watch abit of ratatouille alone..then jan sms me ask me go fer dinner with her..saw i acc her to hougang point for her dinner..saw elson and marc..actually elson ask fer gathering tat nite..but cant nar..and ya..jan still not talkin to elson and e rest...hai...so long le..forget it ba..ok..after jan's dinner at mac..we head back to pat's place...by then von and alex's there too le..their turn to play mj with kor and jie..kel was there too...so me and jan nua tgt in pat's room..waited fer em to finish mj..then alex von jan and me(jan pillion me) went to geylang fer supper..yes..we had dimsum again..126..hurhur..nice..after supper jan fetch me hm le..reach ard 345...was sooo tired...Zzzzz~~
sat mornin..i woke up at 10..=.= gotta help do housework and later on leave at 12 to e airport..my aunt ad was leavin tat day with her husband and my two devil cousins..hurhur...hmm..miss em already..i'll jus smile and luff and forget everything when i look at em..haha..had lunch at e airport with parents..my aunt and her family..my uncle..my godma..my other cousins and my grandmother....then after my aunt and family's departure..i went hm by myself..i continued to slp when i reach hm..hahaha..i was very tired nar..woke up ard 5..took shower touch up then head down to pat's hse..cos we have a gatherin with elson and e rest..elson's leavin fer iraq fer 4mths..so it was his last weekend here..haha..very fast de la elson..e gatherin was like a farewell to him lor..lol..we went to cuppage party world fer ktv...pattie bio mingyao elson amy and ah long was there..we sang till ard 145...came out took a turn to look fer ah marc..discuss where to go..then elson fetch pat hm first cos she got curfew..but even if she got no curfew when her time's up she will start to stone le..hurhur..after sendin her back hm me and elson headed back to meet up with e rest at east coast..they wanted to bowl but too bad we were there too late..so ah marc suggested ba chor mee near geylang..i didnt eat..cannot eat le..eat too much this few days already...haha..i didnt even finish my lime juice tat i ordered..too sour!!then they talk cock sing song until 4am!!my eyes already closin le..so i got elson to send me hm le...reach hm straight away Zzzzz!
sun jumped up at 11am..had some porridge..read some newspaper..watch abit of tv...then i went back to slp at 1plus...haha..then slept till 5plus..took shower..then went to compass pt to meet van..von came later on..had dinner then left ard 9...watch a bit of tv..then went back to my room start listen to a new album which i jus bought..my fav chinese singer..a mei zhang hui mei..her new album wasnt as good as her previous ones...hmmm.but still e ballads she sang were touchin enuff fer me...then noe wat??my cd player got low batt..i got to charge..but e charger was spoilt!!!damn!i cant charge!shit..so i tot of usin e AA batt seperate compartment..it didnt work too!!argh!got fed up..nvm!iwent to slp!
was almost late fer werk again this mornin...gettin worst..hmm..i should slp early and wake up early le..=P anyway..i've got a mei's songs in my mp3 le..i jus uploaded em into it... =) oh and was talk on skype with my gurls as usual...jan ask who wanna go bintan with her..i was e first to reply..ME!!!haha..and guess wat..now all wanna go..lol..good la..all go tgt...mus relax..if go will be goin from 7 - 9 sept..pat gotta go hm and check first..hmm..if everythin settle we will be goin to bintan in sept..then gentin in oct...oooo..relaxxx...... ^^
aite...i gtg..so long post..all talk rubbish..lol..chus! <3

dark clouds..stormy sky..rainy days..

yes..i hate dark clouds..stormy sky..rainy days...always make me feel so down... >.<
maybe im jus so weak afterall...i still get flash backs every now and then...no matter is it good or bad..sometimes i feel like slappin e hell outta myself!don understand!!jus donT!do i have to keep to myself fer another 3-4 yrs then move on again??wat kinda fate is this?phoo~ wat's wronnnggg???

很累很累啊。。。明明有事却要装做一副没事的样子。。。伪装着自己。。快要疯掉了啦。。。不是不是。。不只是因为和他之间的事。。不要问我还有什么事。。。就想很多啦! >.<

phoo~need a break!get outta here...don care if it's a near or a far trip..i jus need to get outta here fast!i need to breath~~ =.= oh btw..van's bf ah hao jus left fer LA this mornin...fer 4mths..hmm..gurl..don sad eh..treat it as a test fer e both of u..ok? =)
movie tonight with dawn...rush hour 3...hope this action comedy helps..hurhur...chill...


p.s. 为什么人总是要把自己弄得那么难堪呢？

始作俑者

没有表情一个人坐著等著一个安慰的理由但你没有..

她不是始作俑者缺席的你罪恶的问候用沉默代替解脱迷失在你的话语用微笑告别以后这一刻后彼此要擦身而过放下一切让你走就这样不再联络

想起你电话来时的表情想起从前爱你的声音想起总是微微笑的你想起从前爱你的调皮想起如果没有遇见你想起从前爱你的甜言蜜语面对著自己背对离去的你我已失去

多年后时间不再紧凑你我的以后也不再拼凑爱情始作俑者不是谁没有谁错又或谁对不再害怕面对想起你电话来时的表情想起从前爱你的声音想起总是微微笑的你想起从前爱你的调皮想起如果没有遇见你想起从前爱你的甜言蜜语面对著自己背对离去的你我已失去面对著自己背对离去的你选择放弃...

**神经病。。无聊。。为什么要这样？？我不知道。。 T.T

thinkin~

random thoughts...

friendship...read someone's blog...abt she was bein asked "who would u look fer when u are in trouble?" for me?i have a bunch of frens fer me to look fer...i mean it's not like im boastin abt how many frens i have or how popular i m with ppl ard..cos im not...ppl tend to think tat u noe..once u graduate from schs u will slowly lost contact with ur so called best frens...but tat didnt happen to me...don mention abt pri sch frens...cos haha..really nv contact anyone of em...peeps who noe me noes who are e gurls i always hang out with...my sec sch frens...evon,patricia and vanessa...we are sisters...haha...gosh..it's been 8yrs...mm..we do have conflicts here n there..but still we noe how important we are to each other...janlex..she's one of my sisters too..she was introduced to us by patricia during their poly days...now..we meet up basically every wk..it's not jus abt e meet ups tat made our friendship stand strong..we will feel touch enuff even if jus a simple phone call...my ite best frens..cynditan n dawn...i've known em fer like..4yrs??they too...will be there fer me when im down..like wat happened recently..from e beginnin until now...they were all there to support me...i feel sorry..tat i make u gurls so tired with me...u gurls acc me wait..rush down to me when u hear me cry...call me when im at tat depression period..give me advises...i cant thank you gurls enuff...seriously...i wouldnt have make it if it werent fer all of u..y is it always when somethin happen then ppl will come to realise how impt they are fer each other??hmmm...

love...wat exactly is e feelin of bein loved and lovin someone??i donno anymore...i feel so numb when i see and hear this word...y do relationships always start with so much love shown to each other then slowly things start to change?y cant everythin stay e same?yes..of cos i noe there's always ups n downs..but wat i mean is...y some love in e r/s will jus fade away so easily??y is it so easy fer some ppl to fall in n out of love so easily?and y is it so hard to give in to each other?y is it so hard to understand each other?y is there no trust in r/s?y betray when ur love one trusted u so much??y be so selfish always thinkin abt urself but no one else?will all my qns be answered?no?i guess so...love is so hard to explain...

emo period...my gurls are all in e emo period of time now....hurhur...cos lotsa things happened recently...plus von's family...van's bf leavin fer LA..jan n uncle joe couldnt seem to understand each other...pat n kel...mmm...i donno man...we need a break from all this man...
be strong my gurls...rem!no matter wat...we are always there fer each other..ok??

love n hugs...ashley~^^

up coming activities~

woooo~~im like revive again??haha..feel so much better now...^^
gosh...im gonna be very busy again soon eh...first upcomin up activity will be Comex Show 2008 at suntec city..30th aug - 2nd sep...our company is involve so ya...hopefully everythin goes well for this yr's show..sell many many..company earn many many..then company give us money many many..wahahaha...
well..my colleagues suggested havin a bbq after comex show...it will be a combined post palme & comex event..aiyo..so budget de...lol...and guess wat?my colleagues ask me to be organiser...ahhh!!i don wan nar...very troublesome de...i see my colleagues organising events fer our company previously like scary la...hai..ya i noe it's jus a bbq...but..hmm..lazy ba i guess..hahah!=.=
hmm..me and my gurls are plannin fer a gentin trip...maybe end sept or oct...it will be fun la...cos i've known em so long le and we haven go out of spore tgt before...like "shua gu" eh...lol...need to relax and enjoy ma~~cos i haven been..ever since e break up..hmm..soo...ya...^^
er...i think i need to do smth to my blog..look so sian nar!!!=.= but i lazy..wahaha...
aite la..i gtg go..update soon~^^





current song tat im addicted to...ah mei zhang hui mei's 如果你也听说...
enjoy her mv..^^ i haven even watch it myself..=.=

no trust in anyone anymore

i've nv felt so relieve before...after wat happened last nite...

我曾经因为你而在次相信爱。。不是我不让你解释。。而是你自己不要不想。。现在？太迟了。。一切都过去了。。 失望了。。不再相信了。。

byebye~

jerk..

wed nite..join evon n her pri sch frens fer dinner at balcony...actually wanted to club..but donno how we ended up with ktv session...von's pri sch frens were nice...talk cock alot like us also...hahaha..so we finished ktv ard 3plus..took cab hm with von..reach hm 4plus...wash up and pam!ZZzzz!!!
woke up at 3 plus e nxt day..national day..had a movie date with dawn at ps in e evenin..so met her ard 5plus fer early dinner..walked ard..bought new thongs..haha..710 e movie start..we watch "不能说的。秘密" it's a touchin movie..should watch it...^^ below is e mv..sang by jay chou..



after movie went seperate ways with dawn...abit sad cos didnt catch e fireworks..anyway..went over to pat's place to take cartridge from her..then walk over to von's hse..jan von van vin and shir were there..playin mahjong...so i waited fer alex to come back take over van then we go hm tgt..cos we stayin same area ma...reach hm watch abit of "goong s" korean drama...then went to slp..gotta werk nxt day...

today...fri...i keep thinkin of it..i shouldnt be thinkin abt it...but i cant help it..was suppose to go to gentin with wc tn..but we've broken up..and he is still not returnin wat he have to return....im still givin u face wc...be more responsible and stop bein like a jerk aite??and who e hell noe which gurl is goin to gentin with u...and u are not even e one who paid fer both person's trip! =.= u r really a selfish jerk u noe??fine...go ahead with ur trip...enjoy urself eh...don make things worst wc...感觉像被你背叛了。。对你彻底的失望。。wc...grow up pls...

phoo~gtg stop here...gotta werk..borin..lazy...hai..tata..

IM OK! =)

im ok im ok im ok~!~!^^

clubbin tonight!!woohoo~!it's been long since i go clubbin..yeayea!gonna dnce e hell outta me~~hurhur^^

mahjong session...haha!

korkor n jiejie's wedding..^^

jiejie n me..^^

korkor n me..^^

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blog again?smile again?

我回来了..没想到会那么快回来blog..有一个星期吧？^^

原来逼自己忘记是件那么难的事..就让自己很忙啊..忙着工作..可是一到了晚上..或是没人在我身边的时候..一切就好像回到了原点..很空虚..也不了解到底为什么我就是那么放不下你..还需要多少时间呢??真的不知道..
我现在多么希望能把自己的微笑找回来..是发自内心的..而不是勉强在大家面前的笑...可以吧?tan叫我快点把两个月前的kaiyi找回来..哈哈..我也想啊..那时的我是多么快乐的..自己也开始想念那时的我了...哈哈..我的阿姨在星期天和我聊了一会儿..问我和你是开心的分手或是不开心的分手..我告诉他..不开心..阿姨说.."it's ok..u are still young and u can definitely find someone better..when u grow older and u come to think abt wat happened before..u will luff abt it..and think of it as a joke...he is jus a passerby in ur life.." 对啊..阿姨说得没错...但还是那句话..需要的是时间我才能忘掉...

没事的没事的...一切都会ok的...在多些时间..^^
我要谢谢朋友们都一直在陪伴着我..不知道..除了谢谢还是谢谢..凯仪爱你们哦~~haha..^^

mmm..我就写到这里了..要工作了..所以呢..我会带着微笑明天再见了哦!^^

p.s. 스마일 어게인 (=

stop..

went drink again last nite..with pat von n jan..at ponggol park..ya..they were always there fer me...

i've got to put everythin to a stop now..since u said it's considered done..i nearly cut my wrist ytd..but i realise how foolish it will be to do it fer u..心还是很痛。。但没办法。。还是得忘记。。我应该很难再相信男生了吧。。因为这段短暂的爱情对我照成了很大的伤害。。又或许我需要的只是时间。。我真的不知道。。我会试这好好过我的日子。。要让你知道就算没了你我还是能开心得过着。。不会在伤害自己。。不会在折磨自己。。而你。。也给我好好的过你的日子。。不要在伤害下一个爱你的女生了。。

this might or might not be e last post...现在生活好像失去了意义。。写blog也写得没意义了。。i really need time ba..i guess..to go back to my oldself again..自己也开始发现人憔悴了。。大家请给我一些些的时间。。或许我会带着新的kaiyi回来。。

so bye fer now..till then...=)


p.s. 你永远都会在我心中的莫个角落。。