shadow 影子..

我们忘了那承诺..要一起开心..抱着到最后..你总是看着我 笑着点着头..雨过天晴后 有灿烂的彩虹.. 背着我..你什么都不肯说..我比你还折磨..影子多寂寞..看着你的背影发抖..难道是我给得太过沉重?在求我放手...我是真的要的不多..怎么连牵个手都变成奢求??你不再爱我...浮云..我还能爱多久?? 你说..再过5秒后..你的眼透漏和他做的梦...不管我紧紧...把幸福捧在手..背着我 你什么都不肯说 我比你还难过..NEVER LET YOU GO...看着你的背影发抖 难道是我给得太过沉重??在求我放手...我是真的要的不多..怎么连牵个手都变成奢求??你不再爱我...想抱你却被你狠狠挣开手..我还傻傻得不肯看透...如果抉择让你更快乐...我会放手给你自由绝不强求..看着你的背影发抖...难道是我给得太过沉重??在求我放手 我是真的要的不多..怎么连牵个手都变成奢求??你不再爱我.......

背影 - k one
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~我和你渐渐走远的影子..你离开了我..我的心觉得好痛..好痛...

lousy~

lousy days i had...hypocrites ard me...i have a boss who always go back on his words...grrr...JAPAN TRIP!CANCELLED!but we have ppl sayin it's not cancelled..boss jus postpone e trip...oh well..fuck!i don give a damn anymore...goin or not..i don really care anymore...no on can be trusted here...we seems to be like a big family...*fake smile* but tell u wat...it's jus like e cover of a book...it looks so nice...but seriously..it's all rubbish inside actually...

*takin a deeeep breathe!* ok..gotta relax myself...cant be so tensed up all e time...oh my!tat reminds me..i haven been to clubbing fer agesss...my dear gurls...i guess includin myself too...we are gettin too old fer tat??haha..nah la...not tat..jus don feel like goin tat's all...it's quite ok fer me tho..cos i do go fer dance classes every week...^^

yea..im gonna catch a movie later...turistas...kelly say it's gross movie...ooo...meetin her and van..gonna watch it tgt..see ya gurls later~~^^

i didnt know~

i didnt know y it kinda started again...abt sw..my dear gurl vanessa brought it up...there's lotsa things tat i didnt know..i mean of cos.....duh!we didnt contact...didnt noe tat he had problems with his gf all this while...i tot they were happy tgt...they look happy tgt..hmm..they look compatible..hey..wat i said is from e bottom of my heart...he is a good guy...y didnt she treasure him?which i tot she would....cos i didnt..=.= wat a reason...jus wanted him to be happy...and van did manage to chat with him...she say he changed alot...*sigh* and e gurl...think she wan him back..and think she's tryin very hard to win him back..jus wanna say.."不要等到要失去了才来后悔..这样会来不及了.." don be like me...u will regret...>.<>

ok..im gonna stop here..but before i go..here's another mv...song 약속(yak suk)promise..sang by lee ji hoon..nice..enjoy..^^

moving on?

m i moving on with my life?i don think so...i realise tat a part of me is still stuck in e past...while e other part of me is stuck with e recent him...
my past?i've been havin e same dreams every nite recently...dreams of e past when u n me were still tgt...e things we've done tgt...places we've went tgt...it's still fresh in my mind...how long have it been??3yrs??i've always wanted to move on...but it doesnt seem possible....hurhur...guess it's a punishment to me...it's god's will to punish me....
e recent him?well...i didnt see him in my dream....haha...but he is always on my mind no matter im werkin...or dancin...or chilling out with my friends...like now...i jus saw him come online...haven seen him online fer quite sometime...my heart's beatin so fast now....but i dare not talk to him...i feel tat he's driftin away from me ever since tat april fool nite....well...wat can i say...i aint his cup of tea i guess...haha...pretty sad...i jus got this comment from my bestfriends..."kaiyi is someone who like bad guys...good guys ard her who likes her are often turned down by her..while e bad guys turn her down..." haha...whoa...i didnt turn down sw ya?i loved him...and always do...hahaha...but fer wat my gurls say abt me...hmm...maybe true too..haha..sometimes i feel tat they noe me more than i noe myself...is this good or bad??lol...^^ love u gurls nar...
see ya tn vanessaaaaaa~~~~

before i go...here's a song which kinda reflect my feelings now...눈물뿐인 바보 which means A Fool With Tears sang by Big Bang....ya..im e fool with tears...>.<
enjoy e mv peeps...

all i wanna do is find a way back into love~

ooo...haven blog fer quite awhile...life is still e same...makin myself busy with werk..dance..friends..werk..dance..friends...werk..dance..friends......*sigh* borin?not really...so long as i make myself busy i'll be fine...e only thing tat hasnt been good fer me is sleepness nites....my god!it's so hard to force myself to slp!!i'll start thinkin abt alot of things once it comes to nite time...something wrong with me?no...im jus basically an emotional bitch...*sigh* thinkin abt wat had happen tat april fool EARLY mornin...when i look like a fool..sound like a fool...gurls..my dear gurls...i noe all of u are concern abt me...and all of u don wan me to get hurt again...all this i noe...but i jus cant help it..my heart my mind jus cant stop thinkin abt him....but guess u gurls don have to worry too long...like i've said before in my previous post...im one who fall in and out of love fast...tho i myself m not sure how long it'll take fer me get over him........=.=
and...jan..if u happen to read this...im really sorry abt wat had happen before...hmm..wanted to bring this out again becos both of us seems abit weird e last time we meet up...abit quieter than before...haha...anyway...hope we'll be back to normal la...hahaha... =D
ooo...goin gaigai with dawn later..very long nv meet up with her...not sure goin watch movie or jus shoppin...hmmm....ok..think i'll stop here...will update asap...^^


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