protect u?

seriously..i donno wat's gotten into me again...hurhur...i realise i cant club with u...even if it's fer e first time..i kinda feel down when i see u drunk..makes me wanna protect u..but i cant...someone there might think otherwise..well..u might think otherwise tooo...who noes??i noe u were drunk..so it's ok when u tried to hug me and all tat..i jus pull myself away..i wanted to give u my hug back..but noo..friend saw it..and it wasnt a real hug from u too i guess..Owell..wat's e definition of a real hug??duh~!!im not jus any other gurl...i don wan ppl to think tat im jus any other gurl like when u see in da club..worst..i don wan u to think tat way...i couldnt even stay till e end tat nite..i so much wanted to be there fer u when u needed someone beside u..by readin ur blog too..knowin tat u are down..even fer after so long ever since we last met..well..u might not noe...but u were part of e reason y i broke up with sw..hmm..jus a teeny weeny lil part..yes..i noe..it's all me bein 一厢情愿...and i shouldnt be bringin this up...but wat should i do then?i can only throw everythin in my blog...cos no one seems to understand and no one will understand...maybe..there's one..she will understand ba..feelins fer u come n go...i donno wat im doin..i noe it's totally impossible...im not ur type of gurl...tat's all i noe...anyway...if u do happen to read abt this..and u do happen to noe tat im talkin abt u...i jus want u to noe tat i'll be there when u need someone..hurhur...how silly eh..
*sigh* y is it always tat e person i like don give a damn abt me??and e person i don like keep pesterin me???yy? =.=